It would seem that I am incapable of calling in at the neighbours without exceeding my limit of 1 glass of wine. Yet again I have had two. Yet again I am struggling with concentration as a result. Still, I always leave with a smile on my face and I feel this has little to do with the vino and more to do with the company.

Sleep deprivation has accelerated the effects of wine fermentation and I am struggling with concentration. Tomorrow I am an account executive, tonight I am supposed to be researching products so that I am a product aware savvy account exec. Clearly, this is a dry run but since my friend is prepared to put her reputation on the line in a bid to boost my confidence, I feel the need to boost my faking ability.

I had two hours sleep last night. There was the mere matter of cataloguing and getting up to speed with 5 inches of documentation. I went to bed at 3.30am with the alarm set at 5.30am. So worried that I had not prepared that I woke up every 20 minutes.

So today was the day. In terms of stress, i would not recommend a Sendist Tribunal Panel to anyone. Their level of questioning was inspired and rarely have I come across a group of people so able to cut to the core in minutes. Had i been representing as the professional I would have been sweating at the cross questioning. I had read that as a parent, this is the most stressful event. Personally I was beyond the well documented expectation of emotion and tears. As a result, I was able to hold my own.

i can honestly say that I have done everything I can. the chance of winning a specialist school placement is slim. In a system of inclusive education it is more than a challenge to prove that your child necessitates the individual funding of 29k. However, the argument was good, our views solid and there is nothing else I can give.

What will be will be and in 10 days time, I shall find out his future. I am not overly positive in a system in which the odds are stacked against this but I accept that I have done all I can. The likelihood that this was not enough is very real but I know that in years to comer, i can look him in the eye knowing that I fought solidly for three years to achieve everything that i thought he deserved.

The consequences of losing are all to real and do not bear consideration but today is today and it is nearly tomorrow.

With everything you want in life, you hope, you try and what will be will be.

I suspect that this entry is littered with gramatical error and poor punctuation. I suspect after another 5.30 alarm call, it will only deterioate.

Blame Australia. And with that note I am